by SempeI won't have any regrets even if I die now.
I don't know when, but I've always thought like that. I still hold the same idea. When I shared this idea with others, they looked at me as if I was crazy. But have you asked yourself, "why do we live or why should we live? I do not have an answer for it in sooth. I am not joking at all. Maybe, there is no answer.
One time, my friend raised a question to me, "then, why do you work such hard every day?" My answer was, "because, I know I won't die any near." I try my best all the time because I want to have a decent life as long as I am alive.
I do not have any intention to suicide. I am not that brave. Such idea does not bother me much most of the times or causes any major problem in my life. But "sometimes," it gets serious and I get slightly depressed.
"What is being alive anyway?! After all I will die. What is the big deal? It is only dying a little bit earlier."
Wow, (after spelling out this thought) this sounds really serious. Am I really crazy?
I do admit that the life is difficult. I may think I could be free from all worries after death. Maybe, I simply have not found the meaning of my life. Or I am not just a happy person. Perhaps, I may have a serious problem. But, what is the problem?
